I have wondered, I have tried to make sense of the situation, no matter what I tell myself, no matter how much I refer to the Bible regarding this, consolation eludes me. Your bb display message used to give me hope 'The Lord will perfect all that concerns me''the Lord who started a good thing is faithful to complete it'. I look at it today and i'm confused. Deep within me i know you are in a better place and I know I have to let you go so you don't look back and want to come back to comfort us. My heart bleeds as I write this, i'm struggling to stay strong, all I hear around me is 'it is well' true! it is well but it feels like an empty exclamation. You taught me the depth of the word of God, your sound words of wisdom always left me in amazement and sometimes feeling foolish asking myself 'so why was i fussing? lol!'. We had plans, we saw a beautiful and fulfilling year end 2012; twelve being a complete number. Not having each other around by then was certainly NOT part of the plan, but can I question Daddy? certainly not so I give Him all the glory. Your warmth, kindness, transparent love, and sincerity were the attributes which attracted me to you in the first place. I made you a big sister and you willingly accepted that role and used to check up on me whenever you felt I was too distant from you. The five years we've known each other feels like a century to me. Ije-mbakara, I could keep writing but I have to stop as I won't be able to exhaust what I have to say to you in one message, so i'll stop here. My last words; you touched many lives, you touched mine deeply, you were a pillar of emotional and spiritual support to me. I know that someday the purpose for this will reveal itself. Go to Daddy my love, my darling sister. You will stay forever in my heart. Goodbye for now and I love you forever. xoxoxo Unwana Bede